Galatians 5: 22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
John 10: 10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
So, as some of you know I have been really into studying this vaccine and the numbers surrounding this virus.
No, I am not a doctor, never even went to college but I still have a brain that God wants me to use.
I never used to think I knew anything or that I was worth much, I didn’t have anything to offer unless it was sexual. But when I found God I turned into this scholar of sorts and pursued learning new things as they came along. I found that I could learn new things without school and with God as my teacher.
I started out by going to the library and checking out books on Psychology. As God took me through healing I wanted to see how he created my brain and feelings to work together. I did this because I wanted to uproot the pain that caused me to make horrible decisions. Now, 11 years later I am a completely different woman and still drawn to learn.
I keep an open mind and I check multiple sources. Now, with this vaccine… They actually made it quite easy to check out. None of the companies are hiding the fact that it is not approved by the FDA, VAERS is collecting data on the horrible things that have happened to people and you can look up science stuff to learn what mRNA is….
I also was curious about the numbers. I simply wanted to know how many people have been affected by this virus (see piece called 0.03%). Calculating these numbers blew my mind. And yes, I had to study how to do the math but I did it and I had people check it over to make sure I was right before I shared it.
However, there have already been a few people that have taken my honesty about not being the best in math and used it to try and shame me. Now, I know that the enemy always wants to attack you when you are on the right path, but that doesn’t mean that it didn’t hurt me.
Yesterday, I let this shaming ruin most of my day. I was walking around aggravated then I stopped myself to process why??? I discovered that I was hurt, which usually comes out as the secondary emotion which is anger, because nobody wants to admit that they have been hurt. The pain made me start to second guess everything I ever wrote and go back into that woe is me type of attitude. It made me feel like being vulnerable was my downfall when I know it is one of the best things about me and what God uses most.
So, once I realized why I was upset, instead of deleting all my writing and going into hiding, I just went over the facts again and realized that the enemy was just attacking me. The enemy doesn’t want me strong and he doesn’t want me bringing awareness to others about the evil in this world.
This is a great example of God versus Satan, good versus evil.
The enemy can and will use us to attack others, to bring shame upon them but those who follow God are used to encourage and lift others up. It’s all about character.
As I was being shamed by these men, I remembered how I never raised my hand in class because I was scared that I would be wrong and shamed by my peers, so I just never tried.
Well, I don’t want to live my life on the sidelines because I might not know the answer but instead I rather stand up and do everything I need to do in order to figure it out. I will not shrink back.
So, just remember to be kind to those who are different than you. Be slow to speak and make sure you are not shaming someone who is trying to be a better version of themselves. Be someone who makes a positive difference in the lives of those that you encounter every day.