Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.
So I quit smoking 5 days ago.
It all began due to a sermon I heard at Church. The Pastor told us a story about Abraham and Isaac, from Genesis 22.
God asked Abraham to sacrifice his only son to him. Abraham was distraught about this but followed the route to the mountain, thinking along the way. God had told Abraham that he would have descendants through Isaac in Genesis 15, so Abraham held onto this promise and realized that Isaac would have to be alive for this to happen. So at the worst God would raise Isaac from the dead. At the last minute an Angel spoke to Abraham and told him not to touch Isaac and then God supplied a ram for the offering and reminded him of the promise and told him because he was willing to sacrifice his son, he would be blessed even more.
The Pastor said “what are you putting before God, what is He telling you to give up, and what is your promise”?
We don’t sacrifice burnt offering’s anymore or get circumcised by the flesh, but we have our hearts circumcised and sacrifice the things in our life that aren’t Godly, that actually hurt us. God moves mountains in our lives to set us free.
My mountain is addictions, my last sacrifice in this area is smoking, and I know God has been promising me that I will have the desires of my heart if I make this sacrifice. I asked Him again for the heck of it, we need to be reassured over and over sometimes, but God is patient and tells you as many times as you need.
I asked God “what do I get, how do I benefit, what is my promise”?
For the hundredth time I remembered that I desire to help others be set free from their addictions, for them to know God and be healed of the pain that brought them to numbing.
So I decided Wednesday that would be my last day. Well, the enemy always likes to attack when we are making vows to walk with God and become even stronger. I kept thinking I could just drink tonight, have one last hoorah for both things, but I resisted and fought it while I was out shopping, I went home without any liquor.
Then I got an email out of the blue from one of the leaders at Church, she said that she happened to get my prayer request about quitting smoking and staying free of other things. I told her I also had joined Celebrate Recovery and she had mentioned how maybe I could help start one at our Church. I told her a story about a woman I didn’t even know from Church who had started talking to me one day and had mentioned how we didn’t have an AA group and I knew it was God still on me about joining a group, so I did, and I had thought at that moment maybe I would start one at our Church.
She said we need to talk and pray about this, so we set up a meeting.
God came through and let me know that, Yes, He would give me the desires of my heart if I make this sacrifice and get stronger and learn how to lead these things. He gave me my promise to hold onto, which is good because yesterday and today are rough, the promise is all I am holding onto.
So see God places these desires in our hearts, He makes a message out of our mess, and He gives us Hope out of our hopelessness. He turns everything around to give you purpose and the desires of your heart. I had no desires or Hope before I knew Him, I didn’t care if I died and now I can’t wait to live.
I can’t wait to see how all these things work together, it’s just all to perfect. I have learned though, don’t get ahead of yourself and try to figure it out, just live for today and today I need to fight these urges and go to my group to learn more about this fight and to get the support I need.
God doesn’t give us more than we can handle, we do that by putting to much on our daily plates. I’m full today, tomorrow will have to wait (: