Getting ready to suffer!

1 Peter 4:13 But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.

1 Corinthians 9:27 No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.

So I know you have heard it over and over again, but tomorrow I want to quit smoking again!

I have tried on and off for about 2 years now. I would do really good sometimes and other times I caved in the first day. 

The problem I realized last time was, I don’t like to suffer (:

I tell God “please, you are so powerful, just take my suffering”. Now I know the last time I quit, I was surrounded by God’s presence, I was more at peace than I have ever been, yet toward the evening I all the sudden became irrational and jumped up and got a pack. I didn’t even try to stop.

I asked God to tell me what I am missing, why am I not getting this. 

I heard a preacher on Moody the other day, I wasn’t even really paying attention, but he started to talk about Jesus suffering and how we suffer with Him when we die to ourselves.

So I got the answer I didn’t want, I have to suffer, dang it!

I know the reason He allows us to suffer is not to be mean, but to bring us into fellowship with Him, participating in the suffering He took on, to get to know Him more intimately. 

I remember a couple years ago I was trying not to drink, and man did I want to bad. I was walking around the house like a caged animal, I locked the doors, I guess to symbolize that I couldn’t leave to get something. I cried, I beat the bed, I ran up and down the stairs sucking on a juice box non stop. Finally I called a woman from Church, she prayed for me so powerfully that I immediately started to calm down and when we got off that phone, I felt so much peace around me I turned on Worship music and was able to finally relax.

I was so in Love with God that night, I wrote my own psalm.

I had to beat my body into submission. I had to put my flesh in it’s place or I would not have grown closer to understanding Jesus’ temptation and I wouldn’t have been able to participate in the wonderful peace afterwards.

The temptation I am speaking of was when Jesus was tempted by Satan and as soon as Satan left, God sent angels to tend to Him, I think God surrounded me with angels and they tended to me after my long night.

I want that with smoking,  I want the angels to come take care of me after I have fought so hard. I want to see the blessings that appear because I walked in righteousness. I want to feel empowered and move forward on my path. 

His glory is revealed through me not participating in these sins, when I participate in winning the battle His glory is shown. We get to rejoice with Him after these battles are won. We get to know Him better and maybe even understand what it felt like to conquer the whole world like He did.

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