Killing yourself a little at a time

Romans 8:1 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.

Ephesians 4:22-24 You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self.

It isn’t easy to not condemn yourself when you fail at something you are trying to change about yourself.

I have been trying to change some specific things about myself since I was born again and I do good for a bit and then fail at it. 

I keep beating myself up over it, yet it says in Romans there is no condemnation for us, so how do we stop condemning?

We are supposed to take off the old and put on the new. I had a revelation the other day about this. When I condemn myself it just makes me want to give up, it makes me think I will just never change.

I think what am I doing wrong, I should be able to just do this.

We also still have our sinful desires/nature and the battle of the flesh. So the thought I had was about the Ephesians verse, we have to take off the old and put on the new. I thought of myself as having two people within one, like there is me, the new me, and an evil twin.

I want to only be the new me and my twin wants to pull me back. Simply, I need to kill her. The only way to kill her is to deny her what she wants until she leaves me alone. So instead of condemning the new me I condemn her.  This will take some pressure off of me and possibly bring me more success.

I need to kill her the way I think is best for me though. I can’t take other people’s idea’s or desires and follow that, I need to do it in a way that will bring me success. I need to set reasonable goals and stick to them no matter how hard they may be, this way I am killing her off and putting the new me on at the same time. 

Spiritually it is like “I starve you and then I am fed”, I am blessed when you suffer. It just sucks that I am ultimately the one suffering to. In the end of it though, I know it will all be worth while, ten fold.

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