My Easter Sin!

“The Lord is not slow to fulfill His promise, as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish but that all should reach repentance” (2 Peter 3:9)

I was reminded of why I needed Jesus to rise again this morning. Heaven and I woke up late, which is fine, I got ready and breakfast was made to bring to Church. Ready to go I am still waiting for my daughter to finish getting ready, without calling her out to much, lets just say the way she was talking was not appreciated.

I LOST IT, I threw everything in my hands on the floor, I hit walls, and I screamed. She ended up leaving the house, thankfully she walked to Church. How blessed I am that even in a situation like this, she walks to Church instead of going somewhere she shouldn’t be doing things she shouldn’t do. I took a walk to get a pack of ciggerettes because I couldn’t find my keys that I threw. I needed that walk to cool off, that was God, because when my roommate got home He found them in the hall in front of the door. I searched that hallway with a flashlight and couldn’t find them. Thank You God. Even in my sin He walks me through the process to repentance.

This is exactly why we need Him and his forgivness. Even as a born again Christian I have my dark days and I need Him to help me. I would have numbed in the past ashamed of what I did, instead I got on my knees and cried and asked for forgivness and help. I know it will be okay, we just need to wait for Him to answer, what can I do? I caused a lot of damage to Heaven over 12 years, I can’t expect God to just snap His fingers and fix it even though He could. He wants to have me participate in fixing it like I participated in destroying it. 

How did Jesus stay calm and pray for those spitting in His face and mocking Him? How amazing He is. I tell you this though, His wrath will be bad. He is waiting patiently for us to realize we need Him and that we spit in His face when we go against Him. The ones who don’t get it will be in a dark devastaing situation at the end. 

Think about it like this, you do and do for your children and they just walk all over you, they talk to you with disrespect, they take for granted everything you do for them, thinking it is owed for some reason. Imagine you just sit there and take it and take it until one day you blow up.

That is what God is doing He is waiting until the day He blows up, it is coming. But, He is giving us a chance now to go to Him and be forgiven through the blood of Christ and become His children who will be saved from His wrath even though we deserve it.

If it was up to us being good and doing good things, I would be the first one in line to enter Hell.

I am grateful for everything He has done in my life and look forward to seeing the future. I still have hope and know that everything will get better and better because of Him being in my life.

Thank You for rising from your grave so I can rise from mine.

Most would say I had a horrible Easter, but I say it was good, I spent time with God realizing even more what today is for. It’s not about food, friends, and gatherings. It’s about the risen Lord and why He rose.

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